It has been a while since I last posted. Between school holidays, report cards, and my own studies, I have not had much time to think- let alone write. I went away with my family- the first ever as family of 5 (0r 4) and it was awesome!!! Needless to say, I cannot complain about stepping back from My Inclusive Classroom for a few weeks. How was your break? If you did not just have spring break, hope all is well! WE ARE IN THE FINAL CRUNCH OF THE SCHOOL YEAR- this is exciting for everyone: parents, teachers, and the kiddos!!!!
My family time away came at a crucial time in my professional practice- I needed a break. I was at my breaking point- work was no longer fun. I was focusing on the negative- mainly staff interactions. I felt as if the team was falling apart at the seams. I will admit I never go in the staff room (except on treat day). I stay out of that space because it is my experience that that place is often ridden with negativity and inappropriate work conversations. BUT, before the break, I felt the negative vibes everywhere- you know the kind that seep into your muscles and tense you right up!!! URGHHHH
Negative conversations were happening everywhere, so it seemed. My head space became cloudy, yet it was on overdrive, I was zonked, yet full of anxiousness, and I was completely unproductive- even with organizers and checklists! For many of us, teacher or not, this is not uncommon: when one part of your life is consumed by 'badness' the other areas suffer. The feeling of things falling out-of-control or out-of-whack is awful. The what-ifs, the whys, and the worst cases take over. The rational starts to fade. Do you know what I am talking about?